HOme sweet Home

I love Olympia, I love the way the town is set up and the old school building all around town. It has been so beautiful out! Over 100 degrees yesterday! I finally got a job, selling knives. It should be interesting..
I went to the Lake with my roomies yesterday, we had such a blast. I learned how to wake board it was sweet. We also went extreme tubing, whoa and it was gnarly. I am SO sore, in my pits, my fore arms, legs, got some bruises haha. The last few days Traqvis and I (Elle's bf) have been gardening. We planted tomatos, melons, green beans, cucumber, broccoli, and something else I cant remember. We also pruned the Peachleaf Willow tree in the backyeard and Haven cut the lawn, it looks swell! It s abeautiful backyard I love it.
I am at the library now, I walked from home.
It feels so right up here
Kasey is on his way up I am so excited, he should be here tomorrow night!
I have to go now the computer is going to kick me off.. Bye!

Tis a sad day,

Well I'll start out with the sad news. My good friend Alex's Mom passed away from cancer two days ago, the service is today. I wish I could have gone. I feel so sad for her and her siblings. I couldn't imagine losing my mom like that. She will be in my prayers tonight.

I've started to hand write in my journal again, the hand cramps feel good in a strange way. I must find a balance between hand writing and typing. I feel sort of repetitive typing the same things I just wrote about, but whatever.

Attending Evergreen this fall must be put on hold for a year. I am so bummed, but it is better then taking out a $30,000 loan just to go part time. I know I will be happier overall, just sucks because I was really looking forward to it. Hopefully I can still be involved with school in other ways. This week I am going to talk with a councilor about it, to see if there is anything they can help me with, or at least some advice on my possibilities. Also I am checking out other places to live. I think Rachel and Calvin are blowing me off. Totally sucks, but I don't want to live with people that are going to treat me this way anyways. It was a pretty sweet pad I must say, but I'm hopeful something better will shortly come my way.

Today is the "Planter's Day Festival" in town. It is packed with people, the town is never this hectic, so I've enjoyed something to do for once. I am going back in a bit to watch the water ski show, should be interesting considering I've never seen one before. I saw a ramp set up and other odd objects in the water. I wonder if the duck tour is free? Everything else cost a leg and an arm. I am really broke right now, considering I don't have a job and I've been blowing all my cash on gas. The money I have saved up is going fast, it's scary. Hopefully I will land that job at Starbucks or the receptionist position at the dentist office, UNIVERSE give me both jobs!!!!! That would rock.

Tomorrow I am going up to Olympia to check out more places to live, hope it's worth my while...

Hear the bells?

Like my uncle told me today, everyone everywhere should attend a june wedding once in their life, and he is right! I attended a small wedding down the street from the house I am staying in, it was small and cute, and really pretty out. The couple was so young! 18 years old! That is insane, but all power to them, I hope they have a happy life together.
Tomorrow I think I will head back up to Olympia and check stuff out. I am not sure what my living situation is on the fact that I can not get a hold of the person I am rooming with, I am not sure why, but it is sending up a red flag. My first reaction is to assume its not going to work out. Even though I really want it to. I hope I am not blown off, that would suck ballz. On a brighter, yet dimmed, light... the job hunting continues. Tonight after I talk to Kasey, I am going to meditate about it, see what happens. Then hopefully strum the guitar for a bit, then call it a night. I better get going... sweet dreams I hope. Oh and I wrote a song, lets hope I can remember it, and maybe spice it up a bit.

Cali love

I'm so stoked I got to come home for a week. Even though there wasn't much sun it still felt good. It's nice to know Ventura will always be there. It may evolve to a more complexed develeped city, but over all it will remain the same. My parents will always be there, my favorite places to eat and good friends... And most of all da beachhh. I love the beach now then ever over the last twenty years. Washington is cool so far I want to discover it's secrets beauty. See what it's made of.
I'm in santa Barbara tonight with savannah for her birthday. Her aunt rented out a room on the beach. We drank slot of tequilla she just passed out. I love her so much we've been friends since kindergarden and counting:). Tomorrow we are headed to Santa Cruz then I drop her off and I keep heading north. Back to the grind and rain, bring it on

Rainy Day Woman

Rainy days, over and over and over, and it is technically not even winter, shit! I need a rain coat or two, perhaps some cute rain boots and a good warm snugly hat. I was a tard bucket and left my beanies at home, I didn't know it would be this cold. I also need business clothes... I am so alone here. I can make friends, but I want a best friend, now! Good things come to those who wait. I just feel so alone. I have friends online, and friends on the phone, but I need physical reassurance, physical support. I have such an open heart and I can be so gullible, I don't want to get hurt, or let down. I don't want to be pushy or weird either. I hope I can make a good friend soon. Hopefully once I move to Oly things will change. It's hard to make friends when I'm 80 miles from where my life is going to start. I am finally sleeping better, thanks to ibuprofen. I want to relax in my own bed, in my own house, with my music playing and my things around me. I need a laptop asap.
I am worried about my sister. No one in the family can get a hold of her, her mom or boyfriend. Not Grandma, not dad, not my mom or brother. What the fuck is going on. It's been weeks since any of us could get a hold of her, but why can't we reach those around her either. Did I do something, say something? Is she dead? Why can't I get an answer. She's so addicted, so depressed, so lost and lonely. I hope she is ok, this is making me sad though...
Today I am going to Camas to visit Stacia, Mick, Hayden and Kenna. I have not seen them in a long time, I am excited to see how big the girls have gotten. I want to go to the beach, the Washington beaches seem rough and edgy, I want to go! Maybe tomorrow, maybe next week. Camas is the opposite direction of the beach, crap.
I am trying to get home soon to pick up more stuff and see my brother before he leaves for Asia. I am so excited for him. I hope he comes home with an Asian girlfriend, it would be classic. I love him and miss him a lot, I hope he has a safe trip.
Well I need to get packing and pay my car bill. Till next time, tah tah pip pip!

My newest Adventure starts NOW

I'm here. I did it. I made the move. I've committed to a new life, a new town, new school, and new friends. I am currently residing in Woodland. It's about 20 minutes north of Portland. It's a small town, lots of country and old folks. Nothing to do but stare out the window into the rain. There are a few good restaurants but besides that and a skatepark there is nothing to do. I wont be here for much longer just a few weeks, even less. The real excitement will start once I am in Olympia... speaking of which...

I found a place! It's as cute as a button and extremely affordable. It's also right downtown which is always a plus. I will have 2 roommates, Rachel and  Calvin. Both 20, Evergreen students, really into music and making music. I really liked their vibe and we got along right off the bat. We might possibly find another to live in the attic but I am not sure yet. I didn't get to see the inside but from what I saw through the window it's a sick pad. Hardwood floors, white Spanish style walls and ceilings with a big common room. Dishwasher and washer/dryer on site. And the sweetest part of the house, the garage, which will be strictly for music creations and equipment (so stoked).  Rent is crazy cheap compared to Ventura. I am so ecstatic to move in and start on my room. The place is a lot bigger then it looks in the picture... I wonder what room I'll get. Haha I wont have much to put in it, not even a bed, but once we move in I'll start collecting things from garage sales and thrift stores. I can't wait to get my art stuff moved up here, I miss creating creations of craziness. I also need to learn how to knit, so I can start on making socks and jackets for winter. Crocheting is fun but limited. Speaking of which I did bring my needles...
One more trip to California. I have a bunch of miscellaneous items I need to bring back up, hangers, pictures, art stuff, sewing stuff, beach and boarding stuff, lamp, and bedding. I might be sleeping on an air mattress for awhile until I find a cheap or free bed. Wow imagining my own good sized room, with walking space and high ceilings sounds blissful.  It blows it will be missing my boy. Thinking of spending the summer without him puts a frown on my face. Three and a half years of having your best friend live 10 minutes away, now to 1000 miles away, the thought leaves me depressed. It's such an exciting happy time in my life, and he can't be here. From our conversations on the phones it seems like it will be so long before he'll make it up here. Yeah maybe a visit or two over the next 6 months, but I think the thought of him moving up here for a long time is sour to him. I came up here for different reasons then the reasons he would come up here.  And that changes a lot and makes it seem forced. I don't want him to be unhappy without me but I don't want him to be unhappy with me, that would be worse! I love his heart, and his eyes, his goofy laugh and sexy guitar riffs. I love his freckles and his voice. I love him more then I've loved anyone and trust him more then I've ever trusted anyone. Why the universe has pulled us physically so far apart... we wont know until the seasons have passed and our wisdom has grown. It all happens for a reason and I am a firm believer in fate. Fate and faith. I have faith we will one day be happily together again. I have faith in myself to be strong and pull through when times get tough. I have faith that the world has a plan for me. And this is my path... and you never know what tomorrow may bring.