Tis a sad day,

Well I'll start out with the sad news. My good friend Alex's Mom passed away from cancer two days ago, the service is today. I wish I could have gone. I feel so sad for her and her siblings. I couldn't imagine losing my mom like that. She will be in my prayers tonight.

I've started to hand write in my journal again, the hand cramps feel good in a strange way. I must find a balance between hand writing and typing. I feel sort of repetitive typing the same things I just wrote about, but whatever.

Attending Evergreen this fall must be put on hold for a year. I am so bummed, but it is better then taking out a $30,000 loan just to go part time. I know I will be happier overall, just sucks because I was really looking forward to it. Hopefully I can still be involved with school in other ways. This week I am going to talk with a councilor about it, to see if there is anything they can help me with, or at least some advice on my possibilities. Also I am checking out other places to live. I think Rachel and Calvin are blowing me off. Totally sucks, but I don't want to live with people that are going to treat me this way anyways. It was a pretty sweet pad I must say, but I'm hopeful something better will shortly come my way.

Today is the "Planter's Day Festival" in town. It is packed with people, the town is never this hectic, so I've enjoyed something to do for once. I am going back in a bit to watch the water ski show, should be interesting considering I've never seen one before. I saw a ramp set up and other odd objects in the water. I wonder if the duck tour is free? Everything else cost a leg and an arm. I am really broke right now, considering I don't have a job and I've been blowing all my cash on gas. The money I have saved up is going fast, it's scary. Hopefully I will land that job at Starbucks or the receptionist position at the dentist office, UNIVERSE give me both jobs!!!!! That would rock.

Tomorrow I am going up to Olympia to check out more places to live, hope it's worth my while...

Hear the bells?

Like my uncle told me today, everyone everywhere should attend a june wedding once in their life, and he is right! I attended a small wedding down the street from the house I am staying in, it was small and cute, and really pretty out. The couple was so young! 18 years old! That is insane, but all power to them, I hope they have a happy life together.
Tomorrow I think I will head back up to Olympia and check stuff out. I am not sure what my living situation is on the fact that I can not get a hold of the person I am rooming with, I am not sure why, but it is sending up a red flag. My first reaction is to assume its not going to work out. Even though I really want it to. I hope I am not blown off, that would suck ballz. On a brighter, yet dimmed, light... the job hunting continues. Tonight after I talk to Kasey, I am going to meditate about it, see what happens. Then hopefully strum the guitar for a bit, then call it a night. I better get going... sweet dreams I hope. Oh and I wrote a song, lets hope I can remember it, and maybe spice it up a bit.

Cali love

I'm so stoked I got to come home for a week. Even though there wasn't much sun it still felt good. It's nice to know Ventura will always be there. It may evolve to a more complexed develeped city, but over all it will remain the same. My parents will always be there, my favorite places to eat and good friends... And most of all da beachhh. I love the beach now then ever over the last twenty years. Washington is cool so far I want to discover it's secrets beauty. See what it's made of.
I'm in santa Barbara tonight with savannah for her birthday. Her aunt rented out a room on the beach. We drank slot of tequilla she just passed out. I love her so much we've been friends since kindergarden and counting:). Tomorrow we are headed to Santa Cruz then I drop her off and I keep heading north. Back to the grind and rain, bring it on